I’ve been on a cleansing diet lately…from blogging and crafting. I was getting a little burnt out with work, wedding planning, crafting, blogging, finding time for friends, family and fiance. All I felt like doing was painting and I was feeling guilty every time I did a painting that wasn’t related to my wedding to do list. I usually feel guilty when I’m NOT crafting or painting so I decided to pull back and let myself have some time off from everything. I wasn’t
stressing about the wedding having a total meltdown about the wedding to do list and it was nice.
One thing I’ve ALWAYS had a hard time with is over scheduling myself. In Middle School I was in band, cheerleading, the dance team and in the school musical all at the same time. Luckily for me, when I got to High school I wasn’t allowed to do band and cheerleading so I had to choose one and devote my focus. I felt like I needed a little devoted focus again in life.
Another thing is that I started getting annoyed with blogging. I went against everything I’ve ever said about “blogging as if everyone is watching, even if you have 1 follower” and thought to myself, who the hell is even reading this anyway?! Why am I spending hours putting together a DIY that NOBODY is going to try? Blogging is stupid and I hate everything. That’s when I realized that blogging and I needed a trial separation. If you love something, let it go and all that junk.
The truth is, I love blogging. I love writing and telling pointless stories and posting photos of random shit only myself and my few readers care about. The added pressure (that bloggers impose on themselves) of collecting as many followers as possible and being one of the cool kids on the blogger block had me hating one of the things I loved. I was getting annoyed with the follower chasers posting about their goal for X amount of followers by the end of the month. To me, thousands of followers does not equal success. If you’re posting the same shit with a different color bow on it then you’re not presenting anything worthwhile.
So I’m still cutting back on the blogging. I’m not pressuring myself to post everyday or even every other day, but only when I have something I want to say or show. I don’t mind if I have 0 followers, or people think my DIYs are pointless and stupid. A lot of what I do is pointless, like watching reality TV, but most people do it still, right?
Talk to you soon.